What do you do .....

What good times? Of my entire life Ive only been truely happy once.

well thats just more insentive to making yourself happy again.

and just because youve only been happy once doesnt mean you will never be happy again

and the next time will be ten times happier than the last time

we cant change our pasts

but we can certainly innfluence our futures

if not control them

you are incontrol of it all



:hug:

Im not in control of anything. Im on prozac and Im still seriously low ..... so low that Ive felt physically sick all day :cry2: I cant be happy knowing that Im never going to find anyone that Im not 'too much' for. Im too much for everyone and always will be.

theres someone for everyone as the saying goes

but dont spend your life looking for love

spend your life enjoying yourself and love will come to you

and if it doesnt

so what who said you have to be with someone to be happy??:chill:

you shouldnt think like that, your still only young, got the rest of your life ahead of you, you never kno who you can meet in the near 5 years, or the next year for that matter. im sure youll find someone who cares for you and loves you for who you are.

I would hate to always be alone. I want a husband and a baby and would give up DJing forever for it.

I know it wont happen because everyone looks at me in the same way .... oh shes up for a bit of fun kind of way. I always mean nothing to them, even when its clear I dont want just fun thats all I ever am to them anyway. Thats the way it'll always be.

i want to have a beautiful stunning faithful and intellectual wife

to have a couple of kids and settle down and be a house husband

my dream job

No one will ever marry me. No one will ever even want me to be their girlfriend. I will always be 'too much' or 'not girlfriend material' .... even those that say things like they want to offer me the world and would hate to think theyve hurt me or even make plans to go to the other side of the world with me dont want anything more than a shag out of me. Thats all I ever be to anyone, no matter what lies they spout to make me think otherwise.

i have no doubt in my mind that you will find someone that deserves you an will treat you the way you want to be treated forever

i forsee white picket fences 2.4 children
fortnights in benidorm with the kids
family saloon
joint bank accounts
and pensions

i hope to get married someday and have children.

i bet you would make someone a lovely wife



actually thought i was heading that way this time last year

but never it never happened

past tense

hasnt put me off though

get a grip.

That simply can't be true..
There are loads of sensitive guys out there who would gladly take u as a gf!
I think you need to be more confident in your life.. its not as if your in a bad profession and your not exactly ugly either!
I understand that things have happened to you in the past but try and put them aside and look forward. As has been mentionned before you never know who ya gonna meet in the months ahead.. maybe even 2moro..
Also.. prozac is a terrible drug!
Everyone I know who has been on it (4 people) have had the same sorta reaction to it.. perhaps you should see a doc and try and get on something else cos this doesn't seem to be working.

THink I'm gonna pm you next time.. somethings are too personally to discuss on a public messageboard..

*stop the press*

someone posts intimate parts of their private life all over a public messageboard and people reply with nasty comments.

hannah, normally i would join in with the horrible comments but i'm in a particularly good mood today, so instead i'm going to offer you some advice.

stop reading this messageboard, forget about mark and move on from this moment in your life. depression is a cycle, you need to break the cycle.

basically don't take the message board seriously - it means shit all - half the people who talk on this message board won't even open their mouths in the real world

Eat some comfort food to fatten yaself up the fuck off to the gym

:tut:

Or better still, someone set her up with crasherkid.

If you are feeling down about your life I suggest you watch/read about some of the poorest people in the world....they would LOVE to have your life